Changes.

So this post is going to definitely be a hard one for me to write. So much change has happened to me this past year that I didn't really want to share with anyone cause I didn't want anyone to feel pity for me and feel like they had to step on glass around me. I figure I will start with the easier stuff before I start talking about the harder things. 

 

 

 

 So my brother Josh and his fiancee Ryan have moved to Virginia. It was a surprise to everyone. My family is really close and my brother is one of my gamer friends. I will miss him and Ryan so much. Just hard to imagine not being able to call them up and say lets get together and nerd out. lol Ryan seriously blends in with us so well. She is an amazing woman and friend. I love them both so much. He moved out there for a job opportunity so I really hope it works out for him. Hopefully if I am lucky it will only be for a year and they will return home to Utah. I know that is when his contract ends so I am keeping my fingers crossed. :)

 

 Another big change Madi has officially graduated Kindergarten. I can't believe how quickly the time has flown by. It will be so crazy this Fall when she rides the school bus and goes to 1st Grade. Seriously when did this happen. lol I know Madi is ready though. She is so smart and is such a great friend. She always tries to be a little helper and peacemaker. I am sure she will do amazing in 1st grade. I will just miss her while she is gone.

Another crazy change I am dealing with this year is selling my home. I moved out to Santaquin 3 years ago and seriously loved every minute of it. Everyone thought we were crazy for moving so far away out in no mans land. lol My mom would tell me constantly that I moved out with the cows. lol But I loved being so close to the mountain and living somewhere that wasn't so crowded. Plus the freeway was only like maybe 5 mins from my house so it was really easy to get to where I needed to go. I love the neighbors I have met and have become close to. I will really really miss the Howarth family. They were the first ones I met and befriended my family. Amber is such a wonderful person and I will always be grateful to her for everything she has done for me. All the fun crafts, walks to the park, shoulder to cry on, babysitting, and just being a genuine friend to me. Thank you and Thank you also to Kathleen Lange. She was the great woman I happened to come across all by luck actually. lol I was wanting to put Madi in Pre-School and the city hands out little gift bags to you when you go and introduce yourself and set up your water and house stuff. In that bag happened to be a advertisement for Creative Academy which happened to be Kathleen. Just lucky because it was really really old. She no longer was advertising for her Pre-School when I found it. lol Lucky for me she was still teaching and took in Madi. We have become great friends and I love her so much. She has helped me so much as well. I look up to her and will always be grateful for all the help and time she has dedicated to me. She was always willing to help me even though she was dealing with her own struggles. I am just so grateful to be surrounded by such wonderful people. They will always hold a place in my heart. I will miss my home. Moving back in with the parents will be a huge adjustment but hopefully in time I will be able to get a new home and meet new people and start a new adventure.
Finally the hard one. As most of you have learned on Facebook I just got divorced May 17th. Bill and I were struggling since last June and he decided he wanted a divorce. I tried so hard to keep our marriage together. I mean no marriage is perfect. I loved Bill so much so I am sure it will take me time to heal and to be able to get past this. But I really do hope I will be able to find happiness again and I hope Bill is able to find whatever it is he is looking for that he feels will make him truly happy. Trust me I am not looking forward to this dating again at all. I signed up at LDS Singles and seriously so many crazies already. I have had many people asking for naked pics, a crazy marriage proposal, and a lot of men are only on there for hook ups. Not sure what I have gotten myself into. Dating sucked the first time around I really never thought I would be doing this again plus with kids it is so scary. I guess once I am ready I will meet someone wonderful for now I would at least like to socialize and mingle with some single men and woman. I haven't been single for 8 years so I think it would be best for now to keep it that status. You never know though who you will meet. Who knows what will happen. I should of changed my blog title to the many adventures of Jen. lol Since I am sure I will be sharing a lot of crazy dating stories once they start happening. lol
Well now you all know whats happening in my life. I will try to do better with blogging just haven't had a whole lot of motivation. Thanks for listening. :)

6 Already!!!

Seems so crazy to think about 6 years ago Madi was so small and cute

 

 

and ends up turning into this beautiful little 6 year old.

 

 





 

 I can't believe my baby Madi turned 6 years old March 13th. I can't believe this Fall Madi will be in full time school. This year she wanted a Tinkerbell party. We invited her little friends from school plus her cousins that are close to her age. There was a total of 11 girl including her 2 little sisters.  I set up a fairy treasure hunt that was stressful by itself. I ordered little fairy bracelet charms at the end of February thinking that would give them plenty of time to arrive before her party. Well I found out later that I ordered them from the U.K. and that it takes 5 to 16 business days to reach the United States. I was in panic mode. Luckily they arrived the Thurs before the party. It definitely cut it really close. I hung these fairies in the trees and bushes plus sprinkled pretty beads in the flower beds so the kids could capture their own fairy and collect fairy treasure to make bracelets. The girls also got to decorate fairy wands that were cookies. I think the girls enjoyed themselves. :)

 

 

 This year I got Madi her first big girl bike that she really loves. It is a Disney Princess one. :)

 



Goodbye 2012 Hello 2013

I am so excited to start a new year. 2012 has been very difficult for me this year. Seem to be a lot of drama going on that was not fun to deal with. I have had to learn a really difficult lesson this last year that everyone has their own free agency. It sucks sometimes but it has been something I have had to deal with for most of this last year. I am not going to go into detail about it but I am hoping for much nicer results this year.
My New Years resolution this year I have decided is to just work on myself. I know it sounds selfish of me but I really need to find happiness within myself again.

1- I am going to work on being a better mother. I love my 3 girls so much and can't imagine life without them. I would love to do more fun family activities that are free. If anyone has any fun ideas please let me know. I am always looking for more ideas. Learning to be more patient with the girls.

2- I am going to work on my relationship with God. Mostly focusing on the basics. Making sure I am always attending my church meetings as often as possible. Making sure to pray every night. Making sure to start reading my scriptures more frequently. Trying to bring God into my life for every moment. Start thinking to myself more often would I do this if God were next to me at this moment. I need to work on attending the temple more frequently too.

3- Work on my own physical appearance. Mostly just trying to eat much healthier and starting a work out plan that I will be able to follow. I am weak like most people so it will need to be a plan that I know for sure I will be able to do. Nothing too crazy. Honestly I don't own a scale and I am not planning on owning one I would just love to feel comfortable in my own skin and love myself.

4- Finally I am going to really try to work on my own happiness. I need to stop worrying so much about what other people would think of me. Just do what I know is right and what I feel needs to be done that is best for me and my family.

So if this year I am starting to sound more selfish then normal I am sorry. I just really need a good year to focus on myself and making myself happy again. A year of pampering physically, Spiritually, and Mentally for myself. I am hoping that doing these things will help to make my own family happier and to bring us closer.

Halloween!!!

I love Halloween as most of you know. My girls and I decided to do a little theme of bugs and of course our little flower. Madi was a bee, Kaylin was a ladybug, I was a butterfly, and Ava was our little flower. I tried to get Bill to join in on the theme to be a spider or something but he wasn't very excited about it. So he did spray paint his hair at least and was a old man instead. We ended up with so much candy this year it is crazy. We trick or treated at my brothers work at Adobe, plus Nature Sunshine, and finally my moms neighborhood. The girls had a great Halloween so that is all that matters to me. 

 

 

 

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

School Days!!

Kids grow up so fast it is crazy. Madi is now in Kindergarten and Kaylin has started her first year in Pre-School. Madi is going to Orchard Hills Elementary and Kaylin is going to Creative Academy Pre-School. They were both really excited. Madi didn't think it was fair that Kaylin got to start before her but she still ended up enjoying her first day of school too. Kaylin has school every Tues and Thurs so it is nice to be able to have a couple of hours with just me and Ava bonding time. :) 

 



 

 Madi and her teacher Mrs. Esquerra

 

 

My little Kindergartner.

 

 

 Kaylin and her teacher Mrs. Lange

 

 

My little Pre-Schooler. 

Pet Kitty for a day.

So the girls and I have started walking to the park almost everyday now just to get out and be active.  On the way home the last time we went 2 baby kittens followed us home. One was completely black and the other one was black and white. They were super cute. Poor Madi really wanted the black and white kitty. Unfortunately for her I told her no. We already have a dog that she isn't very helpful with so I figure having a kitten too I would end up being the one taking care of it also. She cried of course and ended up telling daddy, " I am praying so hard why won't God let me have this kitty?" lol Poor thing. They enjoyed the baby kitten for a couple hours then I ended up handing it over to a neighbor who wanted a pet anyways and we really thought these kittens were homeless. Turns out a couple days later their owners came looking for them so I pointed them in the right direction. The girls really enjoyed the kitten even though it was only for a short time. Maybe when Madi is older I will be willing to cave in and finally get her a kitten, but for now she has Khloe, our dog.

 Madi holding one of the kittens.

She has a swollen eye because earlier that day she got stung by a wasp under her poor eye.

 Kaylin and the same kitten.

Happy 4th of July!!!

I love all the holidays they are so much fun. We ended up spending the 4th of July at my parents home. We had a really nice BBQ in their backyard and played some fun outside games. We played croquet and some ball game where you bounce the all on a little tramp and try to get the ball into the holes to get points. It was pretty fun. My husband ended up winning both games. Such a cheater. lol j/k. I hope everyone else had a nice 4th of July. :)

 Little Ava playing in the dirt next to the flowers.

Madi playing croquet so cute. :)