Changes.

So this post is going to definitely be a hard one for me to write. So much change has happened to me this past year that I didn't really want to share with anyone cause I didn't want anyone to feel pity for me and feel like they had to step on glass around me. I figure I will start with the easier stuff before I start talking about the harder things. 

 

 

 

 So my brother Josh and his fiancee Ryan have moved to Virginia. It was a surprise to everyone. My family is really close and my brother is one of my gamer friends. I will miss him and Ryan so much. Just hard to imagine not being able to call them up and say lets get together and nerd out. lol Ryan seriously blends in with us so well. She is an amazing woman and friend. I love them both so much. He moved out there for a job opportunity so I really hope it works out for him. Hopefully if I am lucky it will only be for a year and they will return home to Utah. I know that is when his contract ends so I am keeping my fingers crossed. :)

 

 Another big change Madi has officially graduated Kindergarten. I can't believe how quickly the time has flown by. It will be so crazy this Fall when she rides the school bus and goes to 1st Grade. Seriously when did this happen. lol I know Madi is ready though. She is so smart and is such a great friend. She always tries to be a little helper and peacemaker. I am sure she will do amazing in 1st grade. I will just miss her while she is gone.

Another crazy change I am dealing with this year is selling my home. I moved out to Santaquin 3 years ago and seriously loved every minute of it. Everyone thought we were crazy for moving so far away out in no mans land. lol My mom would tell me constantly that I moved out with the cows. lol But I loved being so close to the mountain and living somewhere that wasn't so crowded. Plus the freeway was only like maybe 5 mins from my house so it was really easy to get to where I needed to go. I love the neighbors I have met and have become close to. I will really really miss the Howarth family. They were the first ones I met and befriended my family. Amber is such a wonderful person and I will always be grateful to her for everything she has done for me. All the fun crafts, walks to the park, shoulder to cry on, babysitting, and just being a genuine friend to me. Thank you and Thank you also to Kathleen Lange. She was the great woman I happened to come across all by luck actually. lol I was wanting to put Madi in Pre-School and the city hands out little gift bags to you when you go and introduce yourself and set up your water and house stuff. In that bag happened to be a advertisement for Creative Academy which happened to be Kathleen. Just lucky because it was really really old. She no longer was advertising for her Pre-School when I found it. lol Lucky for me she was still teaching and took in Madi. We have become great friends and I love her so much. She has helped me so much as well. I look up to her and will always be grateful for all the help and time she has dedicated to me. She was always willing to help me even though she was dealing with her own struggles. I am just so grateful to be surrounded by such wonderful people. They will always hold a place in my heart. I will miss my home. Moving back in with the parents will be a huge adjustment but hopefully in time I will be able to get a new home and meet new people and start a new adventure.
Finally the hard one. As most of you have learned on Facebook I just got divorced May 17th. Bill and I were struggling since last June and he decided he wanted a divorce. I tried so hard to keep our marriage together. I mean no marriage is perfect. I loved Bill so much so I am sure it will take me time to heal and to be able to get past this. But I really do hope I will be able to find happiness again and I hope Bill is able to find whatever it is he is looking for that he feels will make him truly happy. Trust me I am not looking forward to this dating again at all. I signed up at LDS Singles and seriously so many crazies already. I have had many people asking for naked pics, a crazy marriage proposal, and a lot of men are only on there for hook ups. Not sure what I have gotten myself into. Dating sucked the first time around I really never thought I would be doing this again plus with kids it is so scary. I guess once I am ready I will meet someone wonderful for now I would at least like to socialize and mingle with some single men and woman. I haven't been single for 8 years so I think it would be best for now to keep it that status. You never know though who you will meet. Who knows what will happen. I should of changed my blog title to the many adventures of Jen. lol Since I am sure I will be sharing a lot of crazy dating stories once they start happening. lol
Well now you all know whats happening in my life. I will try to do better with blogging just haven't had a whole lot of motivation. Thanks for listening. :)